Hey … long time no blog.
No – not to people …
Don’t get me wrong, you are all important to me. But let’s face it; if I don’t write God’s word He will get it to you. Because you are all important to Him.
So my apology is really to God since He called me to write and I have been disobedient.
We have all walked down the path of disobedience. It’s important to turn around. So maybe my experience will help somebody out there who is struggling along that path where the enemy snatches the Word, the world chokes us and our roots don’t hold. (Matthew 13:1 -23)
Want to hear how He got me?
An eerie silence just washed over me as I was typing … yep that’s the problem.
What if nobody is reading this?
What if I’m wasting my time?
What if I have no talent?
What if no one is impacted?
Like my blog comes up and everyone pushes “delete”.
In the midst of several weeks of doubt and failure to write, along comes my friend and guest blogger who says,
“I don’t think we are writing this for others. I think the Lord has us writing this for ourselves … and to be obedient.”
And then of course the Lord sends me to the book of Jeremiah.
Anytime conviction is coming, it’s off to the book of Jeremiah. I love God’s Word … all of it … but I have to confess when the Spirit calls me to Jeremiah, I begin to squirm.
And then today … Mark 4:40 – He said to His disciples, “Why are you so afraid? Do you still have no faith?”
That pretty much said it all.
I am afraid … of failure … of looking stupid … of wasting my time.
I have expressed these fears before and the words of my oldest son rang in my heart again …
“Really mom … you think you might be wasting your time writing for God?”
So yeah I’m here again … imperfect. I’m sure I missed a comma somewhere. Pretty sure I haven’t gone viral. My books are still at the bottom of the Amazon rankings … but the most important One reading (who am I kidding -perhaps the only one reading) is pleased by obedience.
I Samuel 15: 22
“Does the Lord delight in burnt offerings and sacrifices as much as in obeying the voice of the Lord?
To obey is better than sacrifice and to heed is better than the fat of rams.”
Okay … turned!