From my journal pages …

I don’t normally share my journal with anyone … ever.

My husband has strict instructions to destroy my journals when I die – without reading them.

Do I sound like a control freak?

What will I do if he doesn’t follow my wishes?

         Point taken.


It isn’t that I have anything so spectacular there, but I use my journals to vent about life and relationships and you know … stuff!


So my fear is if anyone read my journals – they wouldn’t get a true picture of my life. Depending which part they read –my family could come away thinking I was an angry, raving nut (no comments please).


However, I came across this section and thought maybe it might be meaningful to someone. You see – I really wanted to hear God speak and so I promised Him 30 minutes of just listening.  Now I have edited out some personal parts but I think you will get the gist.


As background quite frankly I’ve had a rough year and was again trying to figure out how to “fix” my life.


The message from my Master:


         Open your eyes and look around. Have I not provided you with a pleasant land? Why do you look away from Me after all these years of My faithfulness? Have you not read of my feelings and My heart?


         Is it necessary that I put a bit in your mouth and guide you with a whip? For you know My character and My response of love and faithfulness to obedience.


         Just as you would discipline a wayward child, so I discipline My children. As you see the path of disobedience becomes a habit for a child – so also for the adult who is My child.

         Make your habits obedience, trust and love – let those be the path of your life.


         You care so much about what people think of you – their opinions are not the ones that count … but Mine is.  Live to please Me … seek Me … everything else will fall into place.


         Keep praying and confessing … I will heal you … receive it.


“Come now let us reason together,” says the Lord. “Though your sins are scarlet they shall be white as snow; though they are red as crimson; they shall be like wool. If you are willing and obedient, you will eat the best from the land, but if you resist and rebel, you will be devoured by the sword.” For the mouth of the Lord has spoken. (Isaiah 1: 18-20)


Remember that one lamb is important to Me.


I like that the Lord spoke to me using His Word.

I like that on a day when I was the lamb who was wandering, the Shepherd came to find me.


I hope this helps someone today.


I highly recommend a quiet 30 minutes to listen for God’s voice.